Back to Afghanistan

I left yesterday for yet another vacation in Afghanistan. Happy Father's Day to me. In the picture are my friends JD and Deanna who were gracious enough to take me to the drop off point at 6:30 in the morning. Stef and the girls had left Wednesday to visit Stef's mom. Shye didn't want to leave before me, but I encouraged her strongly. My flight had already been delayed once and she had put off driving out to her mom's. If I were delayed again she would miss too much time and her family hasn't seen her or Katie for a year now and they haven't seen the big girls for almost two years. In a way it was easier to leave without anyone there crying and being sad. It was hard enough on Wednesday when they left and Friday when I said goodbye to Mom, Sheralan, Cori and Conner Mom was crying and I could she Sheralan fighting the tears which made me get all emotional. Technically I am not in Afghanistan yet, I'm at Manas Air Force Base in Kyrgistan, I am expected to fly into Bagram, AF tomorrow. I should only be there a year this time and I will try to keep everyone posted on how I'm doing.

Love the Blog!!!

Who did it? It's awsome!

From Tom....

So here is a pix of me Devon, her twin Noa and her boy friend Andy. We are at down town Denver at a arts and crafts show, ther was some cool chalk art going on.

Just 18 short years ago...

The Place: Bear Lake

The Time: (June?) 1990

The People: Kirkums, Williams, Marleys

I had to put these in to be fair! Kristie (very prgnant) & Bill

Sorry Devri, that one with Linda is a doosey! Anyone remember when Tom was cute?

Dad & Kathy, they looked so thrilled!



Ahh, you look so mature Chelsea. why did grandma have a neck brace anyway?

Becky getting passed up by yet another family member (don't worry, there's always Sheralan Whom I can't find a picture of- except for the family one) Scott sported a very groovy hair cut. Devri, you were bound for the islands, look at your clothes!

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MOVING IN!!!!

Thanks for letting me join folks, now you will NEVER get rid of me. LOL

Just wanted to say hi to everyone and tell you all that I miss you and love each and everyone of you. I can't believe how Alan looks like gramps. I about died when Chelsea called me and told me to look at the photo of him on here, she told me to take away the mustache, and so I did, I almost shed a tear, he was the best grampa out there, and Alan you rock too. :}

My seventh son got blessed on last Sunday, he is soo adorable if I do say so myself.
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Love you all, and Yes, Tom and Trevor, PLEASE try to find wives before the second Coming, OK!!!! By the way, this will be the only post I do, because I didn't really want to move in on your blog, just comment on it, but I wanted EVERYONE to know that I love you ALL.

This is Exciting ~ I'm REALLY Feeling!!

I thought the trip to the hosp. was worthless prior to it and after it but I'm beginning to see the benefits. I was very angry about going, especially with Eve and Aurora here. Oh BTW I absolutely LOVED having them here and I'm so grateful for having so much time to get to know them as they are now!! I hope I didn't corrupt them too much!! But we had a lot of fun. We laughed so much. I hope I can get two more kids soon!!!! Tawny would do fine here alone and so would David but the younger ones would go stark raving crazy from boredom. I hope ALL of them can come in spaced out times sometime. It will give me such a fantastic opportunity to get to really know them and for them to get to really know me!! Maybe I'll get a job and can pay for them to come. And I will drive much more carefully since that one way street incident is why Janice put me in the hospital. Anyhow back to the feeling stuff. When they discharged me they'd changed my meds. They put me on adderoll to help me focus better and Cymbalta as an antidepressant. But something wonderful happened!! My ins. co wouldn't cover the Cymbalta and I'm doing better than I've EVER done in my life!!!! I'm going to try to stay off the Cymbalta. The adderoll helps only with adult attention deficit disorder but it's working miracles. By being forced not to take the Cymbalta I've found I feel like I used to. A long time ago. The one change .... I'm crying and I'm really feeling my feelings. I have to admit that feeling the pain, betrayal, abandonment and anger really sucks but it's so wonderful that I can cry .... and I'm not talking about my typical few tears rolling down my cheeks, I can have lots of tears flow. This is a gift!!! Now I can feel exuberance and joy. I can feel the Spirit so much stronger. I can feel everything. I was told in one blessing that until I could really learn to feel the pain and cry I wouldn't really feel excitement, joy, the blessings of feeling the Spirit ..... I didn't know how true that was until now. WOW!!!! It's so wonderful. Sometimes so awful but it's worth the awful to get to the wonderful. I am so happy!! Just had to share that. I know that doesn't mean I'm cured but it sure means I'm well on my way!!! I love you all so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! (And if Tom does the "Who Wants to Marry a Hunk of a Cowboy" thing I will check into a hospital just so they have to prove their worth by coming to see me.) ROFLMAO